Four months ago Eric said God was leading him out of Illinois. We waited a long time and on September 18th found out we were moving to Texas. Here we are I and the kids are living in a small bedroom in my parents house in central Texas, Eric is three hours away in San Antonio working and living with a friend during the week. I am sure in a year or so I will look back on this time and laugh but right now it's not fun. I was comfortable in Illinois. I had every single comfort I wanted. But you got what you wanted right? I can hear those questions run through your mind. I am not sure one ever wants to be pulled out of their comfort zone but sure I am back in Texas the land that I love.
I had not envisioned the challenges I would face. Living with family who constantly has people in and out. I am an introvert so it is exhausting to have people coming and going. Yes as a kid it was the same way but I had my own space. Now my space also includes five children and two dogs. There is no 'me' time. I have thought a lot about running away from home this week.(this is a joke by the way)
and there is being without my husband and trying to go on with life with our five children who feel their Mom's emotions and are out of whack too.
Could it be worse? sure it could.
