I must admit I don't like a whole lot of things about myself but as I grow older I am learning to appreciate them and accept them. God has created me in a unique way and I am uniquely me just as you are uniquely you. I really need to repeat that sentence over and over again.
I have struggled with weight issues all my life due to hormonal issues like PCOS and have gone up and down in weight over the years. It has been hard. It's hard not to compare myself to others. I often find myself caught up in the comparison trap and thinking "oh I wish I were like her". When I was a teenager I also struggled with my shy and introverted personality. I envied those who could ease themselves into conversations and fit right in. I often found I stood out like a sore thumb and still feel that way at times. Once in a while my shy and reserved self would offend someone and they would often label me 'rude' and then try to set out to change me. Of course they would fail. Changing me was like taking a Tomato and trying to make it a Rose. It doesn't work. God has created each individual with a unique set of qualities to glorify him in some shape or form. My shape may be a little more rounder than others but it is still the shape God made me. Even at my ideal weight I was still a lot rounder than those 'other' girls. Growing up in a family with Parents that were in a ministry I often felt pressured to change my personality, body type etc. but must say God provided the best remedy for my feelings in giving me a husband who has never once tried to make me into something I am not. Yes I am the heaviest I have ever been thanks to 5 kids in 7 years and I look around me and often feel ugly. Let's face no matter where you go there is always someone or something reminding you of your flaws. The faster we stop comparing ourselves to others and accept the way God made us the better. The faster I learn to see me through the eyes of the creator the better. For he made me curvy and introverted. Shy and Passionate. Flawed yet Perfect in his eyes. I may never be a rose with it's fragrant beauty but a tomato has it's own set of beautiful qualities and you can eat them ;)
