The Only One that Matters

There is a sense of vulnerability that came with posting my song across the web. I posted Carissa's Melody here on my blog and also shared it on a much more popular blog than my own. Not one person responded! Had my parents lied to me? Was I not really that good? Maybe my ears were telling a lie. The melody was beautiful wasn't it? It is humbling to share something so dear, to put myself out there and wonder if it had an impact. For something like this sharing it was like feeling naked. It felt like another rejection. My expectation was that I would have people say what a beautiful song it was but what I got instead was silence. Nothing. My day dreams were shattered. There I was wondering what on earth was going on and his voice, the voice that often came in silent times like the one I was currently experiencing, came ever so soft. Whose approval are you trying to win?  

It was the truth. I was trying to win the approval of those around me. Once again trying to fit in. Once again trying to gain acceptance when he had already embraced me. Trying to be popular when he had already fashioned me with a gift of playing music. I need to use my gifts. He desires me to use my gifts. He wants me to use them for his GLORY! I need to use them for HIM and not popularity. He may be the only one listening but he is the only one that counts. I will continue to play for my audience of one, for HE is the one that created me to play even if my songs are only heard by him.

 ^{Galatians 1:10-12(The message)}

Do you think I speak this strongly in order to manipulate crowds? Or curry favor with God? Or get popular applause? If my goal was popularity, I wouldn't bother being Christ's slave. Know this—I am most emphatic here, friends—this great Message I delivered to you is not mere human optimism. I didn't receive it through the traditions, and I wasn't taught it in some school. I got it straight from God, received the Message directly from Jesus Christ.