Conversations with kids...

 April Edition:

Kerith looking at her swimsuit "I love my parachute" not sure why she thinks a swimsuit is a parachute. 

 Today in the van I helped Jonah with a word on hanging with friends he exclaimed "mom you are a genius!" when he spelled it correctly and the game accepted it. I will treasure these compliments because I am sure he will hate me in a few years from now.

The twins are in timeout in their bedrooms until my anger simmers down. They decided to take off their clothes and go for a swim in the bathtub(work out interruption number one) and then after I told them to get out they decided to get naked again and take a bath in the sink yes the sink and take all the kids toothbrushes and scrub the mirror with them. 

 Micah "Mom Mom we found a wholly wholly!" do you know what a wholly wholly is? Rollie Poly :)

  I posted these before but wanted to have all of them in one place.

Jonah before bed. "Mom tonight I am going to dream about desserts falling from the sky and you know what no adults will be allowed to eat it, only kids"

 Micah on the potty: "I need to go to my bathroom yours is not working" me: "Micah it has nothing to do with the potty you have to make yourself go pee pee it doesn't do it for you." Micah "uhh un yours needs batteries"

Searching for eggs

 Easter just passed. The kids were thoroughly excited about the three Easter eggs hunts they were able to participate in. I am not sure if they were more excited about finding the eggs themselves or the surprise inside.  Some pictures of our family hunt in our backyard. As you can see Taylor enjoyed finding the eggs too, she followed Micah around helping him sniff for eggs :D

Weight Loss Journey

I began a new program called Isagenix the last week of March. Today I have lost a total of 57 inches. Isagenix focuses you on ridding your body of toxins which is why they tell you to measure and not weigh because the scale can be all over the place as you go through the process. It has totally changed my life and I am so thankful that God has used this program in my life to help me get back to being healthy. Yes I still have a long road to go(Please don't say that to my face I already know!) but I am happy with how far I've come in the past 4 weeks. I am now entering week five. Hubby Eric is my biggest cheerleader a long with the rest of my ISA team. I am going from the Soccer mom sitting on the sidelines to the Soccer mom running around with the kids. I am going to do this. Watch me.

The road to healing

I've fought over this post for a while trying to put my words into sentences in order for it to make sense. Here is the bottom line. I was abused emotionally, verbally, and physically growing up. I am not sure why there is such shame in those words, why it has stayed hidden behind so many walls from the time I was released into adulthood. Oh and I know the questions that come to your mind like,"who did this to you?" but is it that important to know who if you really love and care for me? My answer is no.

I sat at my computer one day on facebook.  Another invitation to join a group to support someone going through a rough time. My third in the same day and seventh of the week. I moaned and anger broke through, Why did all these people ALWAYS want something from me? Didn't they know my head was barely above water? Then the voice came, my own voice They aren't mind readers you know, they know you will pray if nothing else and yet I was still angry. Angry that I was the faithful, loyal and obedient one, angry that my secret was something no one took as seriously as battling a physical illness. Where were all these people when I needed them? These same people cheering others onto the finish line were nowhere. I felt abandoned. After all what do you say to someone trying to heal from past abuse? How do you support them? How do you help them heal? Yeah, I don't know. I imagine it is a lot like grieving though. There have been days where I've just wanted someone to weep with me. There have been days when I have needed the affirmation that it is ok to be angry. There have been days when all I needed was someone to stop and pray with me. Years of carrying this secret because everyone thought my life was perfect, the perfect family, the perfect parents, the perfect life. Years of hurt and wounds from not being protected from my abuser. Anger over, if there were boundaries set the outcome might of been different. I will allow myself to feel the grief and the anger. I won't hide anymore in shame because people think my life is perfect when it has never been. I won't hide and keep holding this secret for fear of disappointing people. It is what God has given me, it is evil but I know God will make it good. I will let God use whatever he has planned for these scars for his Glory. I know he won't ever abandon me and I know he is carrying me now.

Hebrews 4:14-16 (The Message)

[ The High Priest Who Cried Out in Pain ] Now that we know what we have—Jesus, this great High Priest with ready access to God—let's not let it slip through our fingers. We don't have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He's been through weakness and testing, experienced it all—all but the sin. So let's walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help.

I am taking HIS Mercy and accepting HIS help.

Yay me my April Transformation!

I am so proud I started Isagenix the very end of March 4 weeks later I have lost 52 inches! I am not entering week 5 and up to 57 inches, I am so very thankful that God put someone in my path that introduced me to this program! www.teamfulkerson.isagenix.com

Easter

Conversations with Kids

Micah on the potty, we have been working on potty training: Micah "I need to go to my bathroom yours is not working" me: "Micah it has nothing to do with the potty you have to make yourself go pee pee it doesn't do it for you." Micah "uhh un yours needs batteries" this made me giggle this week.

Jonah before bed. "Mom tonight I am going to dream about desserts falling from the sky and you know what no adults will be allowed to eat it, only kids" I have been working with him on healthy eating he doesn't like it much.

Aww yes my children and conversations. They make me laugh and giggle.