Fits and more fits: A lesson learned

One thing is for sure Kerith is a fighter. The Lord continues to use her in my life to give me spiritual examples of my own more "grown up" attitude. Yesterday I put her and Micah down for a nap, well tried to, lately though they seem to want to fight me and fight me. Micah will complain for a minute or two and eventually get out of his bed and I will have to put him back and we will repeat this process for 15 minutes until finally he realizes I am serious about my position. Kerith on the other hand, well first she will be quiet then get out of bed and sneak her way into her brother's room, of course making me put her back but she fights and fights, kicking and screaming fighting, yelling for Daddy to come rescue her because I am a mean Mommy. She will finally get to a point where she doesn't open the door to come out but will throw her fit right next to it to make sure we hear her. Like we couldn't hear her she is like the loudest kid EVER even when she is happy. So in my hour of tending to my twins who didn't want to take a nap I was begging God for something sort of relief. I mean I do have three other kids to tend to. Nothing came although during my prayer God pointed out that I often act like Kerith when it comes to his plan for my life. What's that Lord? I fight him kicking and screaming because I think my way is better. I'll yell I don't want to forgive people who have hurt me. I want what she has, a nice car, a size six body. AH. I want, I want, I want. When we were going through our infertility I desperately wanted just one child and he gave me Aj and took him back to heaven after a few short weeks. Him time, his purpose for my life. I am now a Mom to five living children and one in heaven after dealing with infertility, after hearing the doctor say I would always need medical help in order to have a family, God chose to give me twins without any medical help and another blessing after that how is that for God's way over the doctors or for that matter my own? Yeah I am a lot like Kerith in my walk with the Lord. I fight him over my wants and desires when really I should surrender all to him after all hasn't he shown me time and again his way is always better?